Waiting patiently with doubts

So I began thinking a lot this weekend, about what the Lord might have for me. We had a young adult retreat this weekenf and our speakers spoke a lot about dating and marriage. I thought long and hard about what they talked about. I realized that I know and understad all that. I just can't apply it all until I start dating someone and get married. Then the thought crossed my mind, what if I never get married?Do I feel called to celibacy? No. Do I feel like I will have a choice? No. and again, I don't think I understand why God made guys so visual, and myself so unpleasent to look at. I know what the Bible says about the way we see ourselves, and how we should be more concerned about winning them over by our humbleness and sweeet spirit. However, I feel like they won't look past the physical. You have to look at the outside first to see the inside. Anyway, I guess it's just a matter of me getting used to being single, and continuing to be contenet with that. I am ok if God calls me to singleness bu t I only feel like I am going to be single because of my looks. AH, I guess I really shouldn't be posting this on here. Someone might read think I am absolutley pitiful. I am just so sick of being the girl that guys talk to relationships with other girls instead of a relationship with me. I am always that girl who gives the guys all the advice in the world, however, none of them actually want to pursue me. Maybe one day...as for right now...I will continue to do what I am doing, Pursuing my God and my King, and maybe one day he will provide a husband for me.