EKG

I think God was doing an EKG on my heart. My church is going through a rough time right now. A lot of things are going to change in HUGE ways in the next few months. Mt heart aches for this church. A church is to be a functining God breathing, Jesus loving, church. This is not the best example if one of those. Most of the time people are so concerned about so many little things that they have missed the mark completely. Feeding the flock. Unfortuantley for this church it may be too late. Many are fed up with the lack of spiritual discipline within the church and they are leaving. When does God, if he does, take his hand off of a church, and discontinue his blessings?

I was reminded last night of the story of Hosea. Although Gomer was unfaithful, Hosea still remained faithful and still pursued her. God is merciful, and loving, but he is also just. I read in 1 Samuel 3 a similar situation. The Lord tells Samuel that things are going to happen and t hey are not going to be good. He is going to judge. They thought every thing was fine. Everything looked ok on the outside, but underneath the surface, something huge was getting ready to explode.

I know for myself the decision that needs to be made, however, I can't help but be saddened by this church and the condition that it is in. What will it take, and how long will it before God's full judgement falls upon this church? Is it too late for them to seek repentance and hope?

I am not very good at this!

I am not very good at keeping up with this thing. I think I would if more exciting things happened in my life. The only thing exciting, but not fun was my near death experience this morning. I woke up because I couldn't breath! It was scary. I thought I was going to passout and die. It almost felt like a heart attack. Not that I know what one feels like, but I bet that was similar.

Anyway. Maybe something else exciting will happen today...I could win a million dollars...maybe meet prince charming...

Yeah, ok...wishful thinking. Anyway. Well...I hope everyone has a beautiful day!

Search for peace!

I am on a search for peace about different areas of my life. I am beginning to get anxious for a plan. I want a plan for the rest of my life. What will I do with my degree when I get? Possibly, at the rate I am going, I'll go straight to the nursing home. :) Will I ever get married? Where am I going to live? What will I do? How many lives will I touch with God's great love? Why am I so anxious? Why do I feel like I will be doing the same thing I am doing now for the next 50 years? I feel like my life will never change. What it boils down to is this...am I trusting in God's great plan for this life he has chosen for me to live?

He has something great for me, and I will trust, and obey, and not be anxious for anything, but by prayer and supplication present my requests to him. I desire his will for my life. I desire a husband, and I desire a ministry with college students and or Mormons? I don't know. Whatever God has for me, he will show me when he seees that I am ready. Whatever it is it will be awesome and perfect because it will be God's perfect will for my life!

Lord Jesus, strengthen my heart and make me whole. Please help me to be satisfied in you and what you have me doing right now. Show me areas of service for you right now in my singleness and while I am not caught up with anyhing else that would hinder my walk with you or furthering your kingdom right now! I ask and pray all these things in Jesus Name. Amen.

I HAVE A PLAN!

So I decided today that I will finally get my Bachlor's Degree in 2 years...so I called my dad to tell him that in 2 years we are all (me, my dad and my brother) going home (to Colorado). We need to be with our family. I am realizing this more and more as I get older, and the longer I am away from them. I hate being states apart from them. Anyway. Hopefully my brother will go to Johnson and Whales University in Denver. My dad will open a Diner and serve really good food. It's a great plan. We will be together with our family. Not loners out here on the east coast!

What in the world?

What in the world should I write about?

THE END