Oh my gracious!

Can I just confess to all that I sinned today! I was not a good witness in the least bit!! This is how it all went down...

So, I show up at work, and I am in a pretty good mood. I am glad it's Friday, and more than anything it's now officially SPRING BREAK!!!!! So, I sit down, and things are going alright, and I wanted to show the other receptionist the beautiful artwork I did last night while I was here. (one of my hobbies is coloring) Anyway, she immediately stopped me and said to wait because someone complained!!! So, I was like what the heck?!?!?!?! I knew who it was and that was precisely the problem! He was here last night and has all the power to tell me what to do, after all he is my boss, but he said nothing. He was even talking to me about it and was really nice to me last night, (mind you for the first time since he's been here...And he managed to remember my name for the first time in thress months!) Anyway, so...The problem is this...Why is it ok for a particular other receptionist to do whatever the heck she wants to, but NOT OK for the rest of us to do what we want to. So...The point, I was asked to work every other weekend. Well, I can't because I work at the Hyundai store. So, this particular manager got mad at me, and needed something to pin on me so that was it! For real. There was another receptionist in this meeting who told me this, and I think it is ridiculous!!! They had a problem with me coloring, but they don't have a problem with this other girl (literally) coming in when she wants...Then taking personal phone calls all day long (on the business phone) but it is wrong for me to answer the phones every time they ring, do everything I am supposed to, and when I am not doing anything, it's wrong for me to color, (again, its ok for her to be late and take personal calls when she has a TON more responsibility than me!!!)

So, my sin...I don't remember the last time I got so mad I cussed...But I am sure it was here and I am sure that it was because of these stinkin managers. I am SURE of it. They aren't any help!!!! They treat you like crap, (especially if you are a receptionist (with the exception of the one) ) You don't really matter to them. All you are good for is to do everything they ask and make sure they have coffee. They never say please, they never say thank you. They just don't care. One of them finally learned my name (3 months later) Some don't know my name still, and I have worked every wed/thurs and fri for the past 3 months. If you do something wrong, you can pretty much guarantee that you will get your tail chewed out in front of everyone who can hear it!!! If there isn't anyone there, they'd probably wait til there was someone there just for the thrill of humiliation!!!! Anyway...Maybe its better explained in person, and there is much more, and where there really is no need for me to cuss in the first place, I did, and it wasn't like it was a bad bad word, but I still shouldn't have said it, and I should not have expressed my anger in that manner infront of my unsaved co-workers. YIKES! Talk about a bad witness for Christ. That is what stinks most!!!! Man, well. Let's just pray I can find another job. This one is just not working out. Every time I work its something new. Something else is wrong, something else is added to the pile of things that we (receptionists) have done wrong. Anyway...Thanks for letting me have a time of confession to you my friends....Please pray I have a better attitude while I am here at work...Thanks...

Dawn

Ahhhhh!!!

Mid-semester has officially arrived!!! What the heck! I have been spending my time working, doing papers, and reading books that I don't understand, nor do I have the time to try and understand. As the school work comtinues to pile up so does my stress level. I am on the brink of insanity! Thankfully, the next book is an easy read, and the 15 page paper due on Monday requires much of my heartful consideration on the topic of repentance and penance.

I can't say that I have much joy at the moment concerning repentance or my salvation. I feel I have been far away from God, and too close to the other things that occupy my time. I have the house to myself this weekend, and where I don't do well being alone, I think I am actually enjoying it a little. Peace and quite for the schoolwork I need to get done, and some much needed time with God. Along with planning and preparing other fun things for my friends and I this weekend!

Nothing much else going on. I get to call Lee again on Friday, what a blessing it is to have a friend like him. I am so thankful for him. So good to have great friends.

Until next time...

I stinkin called China...

I know for some people, this might seem kinda dumb, I don't. I think it was awesome. There is a 13 hour difference between my friend Lee and I, so it was a little hard coming up with a time to talk. It was either going to be too early or too late for one of us. Just wanted to share the excitment!
Sorry there isn't more to share. Maybe some other time...until then...

sweet perfection...

I am usually not one to handle a lot of stress in my life. When I reach a certain boiling point, I can't do anything but cry. Yesterday was one of those times. The straw that broke the camels back? Well, a paper that was due, that I didn't turn in because why? I didn't even remember to do it. All semester I have had things done before or on the date in which they are due. Not this time and after that crashed everything else came crashing down with it. I am working a lot, and I have a lot of school work to do. There are things going on at home that quite frankly, I am tired of stressing over. Situations concerning friends, relationships, and the like are stressing me out, even though I just shouldn't worry about them. So, at about 2 pm, at my breaking point, I picked up a blanket, my Bible and my journal, and a map and headed out not really knowing where I would end up or how I would get there. I just needed a break!

So, there I went. I got in my car. Rolled the windows down. Put in the Lifehouse CD and turned it up as loud as I could stand, and went straight on auto-pilot. Down I-64 East. Took the Taylorsville Exit and headed towards T-ville Lake. No sooner did I get to Elk Creek that the thought crossed my mind, "It's too soon to stop. Keep driving." So I took a left at the light and sped down the road. Thinking about Chris Bosson of course and how much he likes the curves, turns, and dips on this particular road. Hahaha. He would have been proud. The Sun was shining for the first time in a week and between the sun, and the wind, and the music, I felt free. I felt free to go where ever I wanted and to do whatever I wanted. There were no restrictions at this point.

I arrived in Shelbyville, and immediatley got on I-64 East once again and was on my way to Lexington, KY. The ranches that way were beautiful. All the horses were out, and it was hard to pay attention to the road as I was distracted by all the beauty. As I arrived in Lexington, I had intended to just turn around and go back, but then that little voice came back and said, "be daring. Go somewhere you've never been before." So, off I went down Bluegrass Parkway headed towards E-town. I've been to E-town, but I have never seen the paradise of Bluegrass Parkway. There was a very cool castle that way that I hope to go back and see again. The sun was still shinin, and for many miles there was no one on the road but me. It was just me, the road, and the sun. The whole time I was driving, I thought about finding a new spot. A special spot where I could just stop and be still, and mediate on the word of God when I need to slow down, be reminded that he is God, and has my life in his hands. I looked and looked for some special spot. But never really found one. I kept driving, and found 55 towards T-ville again. I had thought about going all the way to E-town and back up to L-ville, but the one thing I didn't want to do was end up in the middle of rush hour traffic in downtown L-ville. I had felt that the further I was away from that busy city, the further I was from stress. So I took the exit towrds Bloomfield, KY.

What beauty this little town holds. There was nothing but ranches, fields, cows, horses. Life seemed so simple out here. I was wishing I could just go lay out my blanket right in the middle of one of these fields. But I kept driving, back towards Taylorsville. I ended up at Taylorsville State Park. Now it was time to stop as I felt myself getting closer and closer to the place where God was waiting for me to come running to him and find rest in his arms. I drove down a little winding road that wound down to the dam. There was the Taylorsville Lake, the dam, picnic tables, sidewalks, and a tree right in the middle of the open grass area. "There it is!" I thought. So I quickly got my stuff laid out my blanket, opened my Bible and found peace and rest in the arms of my Savior. Ahhh, sweet perfection.

I intend on going back to this place every time I need to get away. I love it there. I could spend hours there. I encourage all of you to have a special spot where just you and the Lord can chat, and cry, and be completly separated from the world, and busyness of life. It has helped me a lot the past few years. I can't wait to go back, and just settle down, be still, and bask in the presence of God.

So entertaining..

So I was at work and thought it would be fun to google all my friends and see what stories were out. Some of these were hilarious. In some cases I actually found the right people. Some stories are mixed...but we'll see how much I changed your lives by the others out there who have your name...

BETSY TUBBS: Betsy Tubbs, CPRP Recreation Supervisor (Aquatics & Athletics) "This day and age when everyone is going every which way, it’s nice to have something everyone can do,” said Betsy Tubbs, Recreation Supervisor. Berryman had married a Betsy Tubbs and had one son Wiley McDonald Sanders (that was all in the same sentence...too many last names... :)

Vivian Pantoja: 6 Winners in "Name The Baby Contest"
On Thursday night, January 15, 2004 at approximately 10:00 PM, we were blessed with a new baby pony! "Star" gave birth to a healthy bouncing baby boy. Comet is gorgeous! We would like to congratulate Michelle Fehr, Vivian Pantoja, Chrystyne Novack, Cathy Basye, Ashley E, and Ann Hiller who all choose the name "Comet".

Jamie Bloyd: (Jamie, how often do youi get this???) Did you mean: Jamie Boyd

Kristy Hall: (so this is what Kristy really does) Kristy Hall The University of Auckland Masters Student School of Geography and Environmental Science. 2000 Women's Golf Championships, Hall finishes 31st NCAA-II Championships. THIRD ANNUAL GREAT LAKES VALLEY!

Jaimeson Parris: of ambassadors are comprised of two returning ones — Jan Harriott and Katie Magee — and three new ones — Eric Stephens, John Letoto and Jaimeson Parris. ...THE FORERUNNER by Jaimeson Parris Eleven years ago, the catalytic lane created four main principles to help steer the ministry in an ...Culinary Arts, Secondary - Jaimeson Parris (CIT). Jaimeson! You are all over the stinkin internet...those were within the first 5 after I googled your name!!

Chris Bosson: Chris Bosson bought a low-mileage Yamaha TZR50, stripped it to the last nut and bolt, and rebuilt it using a Yamaha YZF gearbox...Buzzard Bylines Archive, 1979...Christopher James Bosson, March 28, 1977 to Allan & Cindy ...We brought Christopher (2 in March) home to the States in April-June last year to meet the family and many friends. After 5 yrs. in NZ, it was somewhat like arriving in a foreign country. Allan is starting his fourth year as assoc. pastor. The church is growing and God continues to bless the work--we've learned so much. Our second child is due Mar 16...Bosson lyrics. ... Bosson lyrics. View all Bosson songs in alphabetical order ...

Michael Kamber: Michael Kamber was born in Harpswell, Maine in 1963...Michael Kamber - The Digital Journalist...Michael Kamber spent 2003 photographing for the New York Times in West Africa and the Middle East, covering wars in the Ivory Coast, the Congo, ...

Christine Hnat: Part-Time Dean's List Spring 2004...Christine Hnat...(apparently anything I could put here, already exists in Christine's blog...so check it out...its awesome...www.christinehant.blogspot.com) You like the plug?

Dawn Wishon: Mormon Info - Testimonies - Dawn Wishon
A Christian site that focuses on current events and other information related to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (LDS, Mormon)...Wishon, Dawn, Boyce Bible College. Graffco gas pumps...Dawn Wishon - Sales...dwishon@graffco.com..

Who knew what different, yet similar lives we live?

not sure what I am thinkin!

I am really not sure where my head is these days. I am going insane with thoughts and ideas, and the desires of my heart. I am praying that these desires, if not the will of God, would cease to exist. However, they are not non-existent yet! Anyway, I am seeking some godly counsel in the morning. I need one more persons opinion.

I am sad that I can not seem to come to a place of being content. And if not content, then seeing myself for who I am in Christ. Anyway, please being praying for me. Until next time...

Breakthrough!!!

I was able to play raquettball today! YESSSSS!!!! It was awesome. I played with my roommate Betsy! It was amazing! I can't wait to play again...I have had the "I-can't-play-raquettball-because-my-foot-got-beat-up blues" the past couple weeks. Anyway, Jaimeson, Iknow you read this, I didn't know if you knew that you could comment on this stinker, but you can! In case, in the event that you have something to comment on. Maybe, someday when I write something that is worth commenting on.

Anyway...life is good...I still haven't fixed the lie situation, but I am still working on it. Other than that, life is good. Nothing new going on. Sad day...maybe one of these days!!! Hopefully. Anyway, well, since this is really boring...I will go...til next time...

ps...anyone want to play raquettball? Give me a call or shoot me an email!!! I am totally up to it!!

you have to watch this

http://www.softlab.ece.ntua.gr/~sivann/pub/swf/may02-smilepop-soapbox4.swf

I am such a chicken!

I know some of you...well probably the majority of you...who am I kiddin no one reads this thing. In the event that you do, most likely you are wondering about this lie thing. Well, to be honest, I am too. I don't know why I did it. It is actually a more funny thing than it is a serious thing...even though a lie is a lie...but however, I am in the process of trying to get it fixed still. Most likely I won't post the situation on here, just pray that I am not a big chicken and fess up...

I lied,,,,

but I am thinking of ways to...well...un-lie.... hahahahahaha

yeah...

I lied...definitly lied.

I lied...

that's it.