why I enjoy a journal (blog)

I found this previous post, and was so encouraged. I am in this situation now, and I am thankful that my heart hasn't changed. I am so thankful that when we are obedient to God, and take the things that he does in our lives seriously only blessings can be given.

Something Happened...but what: Written Feb. 11, 2006

So, as many of you know I have been praying about a certain relationship situation, and as I have been praying the more content I have been with settling for God's will and not my own. So as I am thinking about this to myself...

"Hey Dawn!" (God says), what if this is not who I have for you? Will you still be content with my will?"

"Well, sure. I mean I will be kinda disappointed, but you know what my future holds and I can only see what's happening now."

"How patient are you willing to be, as I unfold the plan I have for you?"
"Well Lord, you created me, which means you are very well informed of my impatience."

"You really need to work on that."

"I know..." (shamefully)

"But will you be ok with this not being the guy?"

Knowing that no matter what answer I give, God will do what he is going to do, but I know that what God is saying is "Are you going to be ok with just me?"

As I sit and think that the number decreases of the number of single friends I have, this question becomes something I face every day. "Dawn, are you ok with just me?" I know that God is doing something awesome in my life. There may, or may not, be someone amazing out there for me. However, I believe that either way I have to be content with Christ. He is looking for me to be content and satisfied with him in order for him to allow me into the arms of another.

My Gods Enough

I've had enough of living life for only me
and reaching just for the things that keep destroying me
so sick of envying the lives of so many I see
somehow believing that they have what I need

my God's enough for me
this world has nothing I need
in this whole life I've seen
my God's enough, enough for me

I can't explain why I suffer though I live for You
those who deny You, they have it better than I do
cover my eyes now so that my heart can finally see
that in the end only You mean anything

who have I but You, Jesus
nothing I desire but You
my heart may fail but not You
You are mine forever

Artist: Barlow Girl

Psalm 73 (ESV)
1 Truly God is good to Israel, to those who are pure in heart. 2 But as for me, my feet had almost stumbled, my steps had nearly slipped. 3 For I was envious of the arrogant when I saw the prosperity of the wicked. 4 For they have no pangs until death; their bodies are fat and sleek. 5 They are not in trouble as others are; they are not stricken like the rest of mankind. 6 Therefore pride is their necklace; violence covers them as a garment. 7 Their eyes swell out through fatness; their hearts overflow with follies. 8 They scoff and speak with malice; loftily they threaten oppression. 9 They set their mouths against the heavens, and their tongue struts through the earth. 10 Therefore his people turn back to them, and find no fault in them. 11 And they say, How can God know? Is there knowledge in the Most High? 12 Behold, these are the wicked; always at ease, they increase in riches. 13 All in vain have I kept my heart clean and washed my hands in innocence. 14 For all the day long I have been stricken and rebuked every morning.
15 If I had said, I will speak thus,I would have betrayed the generation of your children. 16 But when I thought how to understand this, it seemed to me a wearisome task, 17 until I went into the sanctuary of God; then I discerned their end. 18 Truly you set them in slippery places; you make them fall to ruin. 19 How they are destroyed in a moment, swept away utterly by terrors! 20 Like a dream when one awakes, O Lord, when you rouse yourself, you despise them as phantoms.
21 When my soul was embittered, when I was pricked in heart, 22 I was brutish and ignorant; I was like a beast toward you. 23 Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. 24 You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory. 25 Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. 26 My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. 27 For behold, those who are far from you shall perish; you put an end to everyone who is unfaithful to you. 28 But for me it is good to be near God; I have made the Lord God my refuge, that I may tell of all your works.

Craziness...

This past week has been crazy. I have been scrambling trying to get all of my homework done. I have also been dealing with (this is for you Viv) "mystery guy". I am so ready for this semester to be over with so I can move on to something new. I have realized this semester more than any other that I get bored sooo easily. 8 weeks into the semester I am done. Ready to to be finished move on to something new. Grrr...anyway.

I am wanting to start running again, its just a matter of being disciplined enough and finding the right time to do it. I am desperate for raquettball partners (hint hint and wink wink to those of you who like to play...) Viv...we seriously need to make use of the tennis courts at my apartment complex!!!

So, its absolutley B-E-A-Utiful outside tonight! I REALLY need to be reading "Bondage of the Will" by Martin Luther, but all I can do is think about playing moon-lite Putt-Putt Golf and eating TCBY ice cream (a favorite high school memory of mine: Kelly Sellick! :) I think it would be awesome to be outside doing ANYTHING!!!


Lord, give me patience, strength, and determination! Help me to be diligent... Help me to wait patiently on you! Amen.

I've traveled the East coast....

I just want to say that it was so nice to have some time to myself, driving all over the east coast. Just me, my car, and some well overdue time with the Lord. It all started Thursday morning at 4:30 AM. I got up and got ready to begin my trip to Knoxville, TN. I loaded up my car and was on the road by 6 AM. I was finally on my way to see my wonderful friend Lee, who has been in China for months! It was so good to see him and catch up. After a full day in Knoxville, I was on the road again. I made my way down to Toccoa to see my dad and my brother. We caught up a little, was in bed by 11, and I was up again at 3:30 Am to make my way to Richmond, VA. On the way, I locked my keys in my car (again...) And so I was and hour late for the rehearsal lunch. It was sooo great to see Jaimeson and Wes. I haven't seen them in forever, and I was so glad to be a part of their wedding. Next, I got Betsy. SOO great to see her too. We went to the Rehearsal, and then decorated for the reception...(keep in mind, at this point I have been awake since 3:30 that morning) by the time we were finished and getting into bed it was 2:30 AM THE NEXT MORNING!!! We were up the next day at 8:30 getting ready for the big day!! YAY!!! The wedding was beautiful and I didn't fall or trip like I thought I was going to. It was awesome. I was really nervous. I really thought I was going to throw up right before. I thought I was going to ruin Jaim's wedding by falling down the aisle instead of walking. Anyway...it was soooo much fun. That night, Betsy and I did something we LOVE to do. We watched Gilmore Girls until 1 in the morning...or at least I did. Betsy was out by 11. The next day, I said my good-byes to Bets, and was on my way to Lynchburg, VA. I was able to see old friends. It was so great. Then Monday morning I was on the road again back to good ole Louisville, KY! Man, I did a lot of driving. It was so great though. I wanted some time to spend with the Lord, and just think through some things that were on my heart. It was nice to get peace about things, and direction about others. Anyway, I guess this is long enough...Hope you all have a great day!

sooo...

yeah. I'm a chicken.

What in the world?

So, I get into work today, and ALL of my managers have left! I don't mean a couple, I mean ALL!!! And, on top of that, all of my favorite sales people have left as well. So...I sit here holding back tears because I am not sure what else to do. I am now working for the same people I worked for at Mazda. (I didn't like it there because of management) and now they are here. I am worried that my raise won't go through, and I am just sick at my stomach over all of this. The managers at Mazda didn't let me do homework, and they let me go. But anyway, I guess we will see what happens.

Ahhh

So tired of dumb people! Namely those who think its ok to say things about people...wait I mean TO people that are sooo uncalled for. Why in the world do people have to be so tactless (is that even a word?!) Anyway, I am so sick of dumb comments about peoples intelligence and weight, and ahhh I could go on and on and on. (I guess I already am) Anyway...not really sure if I should tell them to shut up or ignore it! Whatever...moving on to more important things!

I am done MAY 08!!! YAY!!! I was thinking today though about what it is exactly that I want to do when I get done. I know where I want to go, I just need to figure out what I want to do when I get there. Its exciting! The Lord will show me where I need to go and what to do. (WOW am I repetitive today...repetitive I tell ya!)

I am BORED out of my mind. I am at work and I don't have anything to do. I am on fall break and so no homework...actually now that I think about it...I did have some!! (oops)

I guess I am going to end this boring blog with "I like to move it, move it..." Watch Madagascar..."Mada-who-ha"? NO! Not who-ha, ascar" Just watch the movie...its FUNNY!!

Can you believe it?

I am updating a blog with in 10 days of the last one!! Yikes! Too bad I don't really have anything to write about. Remember the mystery guy? Well the mystery will soon be over. The mystery will soon be solved and it will be good either way. I write this with the idea that everyone knows what I am talking about. If you don't, email me and I will be happy to explain. :) Anyway...so the mystery will unflod in a couple weeks and I am nervous about the outcome...kinda...I am actually excited to. That's another blog for another time.

I am sad that I can't come up with a good blog entry! What in the world? What are blogs for anyway. I feel like I should be writing about something besides me. But isn't this an online journal...but then I guess you have to ask what is a journal for? Anyway, now I am rambling...on to more important things, like the fact that I am going to go be bored at work for another 2 hours. ah well. Getting paid for doing nothing has its advantages I guess... :)