Christmas

Christmas is officially over, but we only have 360 more days until next year so its good. :) Anyway, I was in Denver for Christmas and it was sooo much fun. There was a TON of snow...

I was so excited! I already miss it! Anyway. Christmas with my family was awesome! It was so good to see them. I helped Jayce snowbored (he's 5) and I helped my brother and my other cousin Chris build a snow fort. (they are 21 and 23) hehehe. It was awesome! I hope your Christmas was great!

what in the world?

So, I thought I would make some homemade cookies tonight to take to family and friends. I added to much flour...now they are chocolate chip cakes disguised as cookies! Don't let them fool you! What in the world?

Almost Christmas!

A week from today, Christmas will have come and gone! It's almost here and I cannot wait! I love Christmas! I love decorating, and baking, and everything that comes with Christmas! I don't like to think about it too much because it gets silly. I mean you spend so much time and money getting ready for Christmas and its all over within a few hours! Oh but how worth it it is! Beautiful! I love Christmas trees, and lights, and snow (even though we don't get much here in KY, I am heading to Colorado! Surely there will be snow!) I love reindeer and Santa, but mostly I love the aspect of spending time with my family. We celebrate the birth of Jesus, and his coming to eventually die for our sins so that we can spend eternity with him! What better gift than the gift of salvation! I love Christmas!

Gilmore GIrls Insanity!

I, very unwisely, borrowed the sixth season of Gilmore Girls from my dear friend Kristen yesterday! I thought this unwise as I finally cut myself off right in the middle of an episode, and went to bed at 7:30 AM. I was up all night watching Gilmore Girls!!! As I woke up today at 2PM, I continued to think it unwise as I realized I was suffering from a "gilmore girl hangover" Due to lack of sleep and inconsistent emotions all night...the shock...the crying...the laughing, I wake up with a huge headache and can hardly function! Although I have never in my life been drunk with alcohol and suffered a real hangover, this is what I imagine it to be (only thankfully without the vomitting...the headache however, very much there...) This is insane! Who does this? This show, (I suppsose) is also like alcohol because once you watch one you can't stop, until you are finally cut off and forced to stop leaving you tired, confused, up all night, feeling crappy with a headache the next day! I couldn't just watch one or two episodes. NO! Each one had questions that needed answers! What is going on with Loreli and Rory? Are they going to make up in this one? Which one is going to give in first? YAY! Rory is going back to school! What the heck was up with Zach's attitude? Lane is getting married, and to the guy who just freaked out on stage right in front of a lable company? Where in the world did Jess come from?Oh now I understand why Mrs. Kim is so crazy! She gets it from her mom! Are Luke and Loreli ever going to set a date? Luke has a daughter!! All questions that needed to be answered! They couldn't have possibly wated 8 hours while I was sleeping! Anyway, only one thing would have made my night with the Gilmore Girls perfect, watching it with my dear friend Betsy, whom I personally take credit for getting her sucked in as well. Bets, it wasn't as much fun with out you!

Thanks!

I appreciate the comments that were left on my last post. (And Viv, I don't know if it was him or not) Anyway. I have decided that I again fell into measuring my worth by what people thought of me. I can't think of anything I have done to make anyone say horrible things to me, so if they are its because of their own insecurities. I could understand them saying that if I gave them a reason to, but I don't believe I did.

Anyway, on a side note! I am done with my Christmas shopping! YAY! I am really excited about what I got for my family! I got my dad a super nice coat for 50% off at Old Navy! I am so excited!!!! I only paid 29 bucks for a 60 dollar coat! AWESOME! Anyway. I will end this here. I don't have anything else exciting to say (like anything else was that exciting either...) Hahaha...BYE!

Dawn...(you fill in the blank)...

Here lately everything that has gone in that blank has been negative. I don't understand what it is that I am supposed to do for people to like me. I don't act like someone I am not. I am not overbearing or judgmental. I feel like I get along with most people, yet I find myself with out a lot of people to hang out with, and when I was at work today, I opened the drawer of my desk where all our phone numbers are listed and under my name "sucls". I haven't done anything. I couldn't help but to feel hurt. During the past week I've been called "ugly", "uneducated", "unimportant", and so on and so forth. At least those things were said to my face. I don't know if I need to change something or what. I understand that I am not gonig to be friends with everybody, but I don't get what it is about me that makes people say all these awful things to me lately. I am trying really hard to overlook it, but as I have been called ugly, I don't want to eat anymore and it takes 3 times longer for me to get ready to go anywhere. In being called unintelligent, I want to quit school 2 semesters before I graduate. I understand that that is allowing what those people say to control my life, and I shouldn't do. I am thankful that some of these thoughts come and go and I never actually act on them. I just don't understand what the deal is with people saying these awful things about me and to me. I may never understand. Anyway, that's the thought for the day...sorry its on a down note...

"If I were a rich man (or woman)"

I am watching the musical "Fiddler on the Roof" and Tevye poses this question, and then ponders what would it be like "if I were a rich man" Then I began to think the same. If I didn't have to work, what would I do? How would I spend my time? Where would I spend my money? Would I boast about it? Tevye touches on a lot of these questions...read the lyrics and tell me what you come up with on your own...

"Dear God, you made many, many poor people.

I realize, of course, that it's no shame to be poor.

But it's no great honor either!

So, what would have been so terrible if I had a small fortune?

"If I were a rich man,

Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.

All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.

If I were a wealthy man.

I wouldn't have to work hard.

Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.

If I were a biddy biddy rich,Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.

I'd build a big tall house with rooms by the dozen,

Right in the middle of the town.

A fine tin roof with real wooden floors below.

There would be one long staircase just going up,

And one even longer coming down,

And one more leading nowhere, just for show.

I'd fill my yard with chicks and turkeys and geese and ducks

For the town to see and hear.

And each loud "cheep" and "swaqwk" and "honk" and "quack"

Would land like a trumpet on the ear,

As if to say "Here lives a wealthy man.

"If I were a rich man,

Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.

All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.

If I were a wealthy man.

I wouldn't have to work hard.

Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.

If I were a biddy biddy rich,Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.

I see my wife, my Golde, looking like a rich man's wife

With a proper double-chin.

Supervising meals to her heart's delight.

I see her putting on airs and strutting like a peacock.

Oy, what a happy mood she's in.

Screaming at the servants, day and night.

The most important men in town would come to fawn on me!

They would ask me to advise them,

Like a Solomon the Wise.

"If you please, Reb Tevye..."

"Pardon me, Reb Tevye..."

Posing problems that would cross a rabbi's eyes!

And it won't make one bit of difference if i answer right or wrong.

When you're rich, they think you really know!

If I were rich, I'd have the time that I lack

To sit in the synagogue and pray.

And maybe have a seat by the Eastern wall.

And I'd discuss the holy books with the learned men, several hours every day.

That would be the sweetest thing of all.

If I were a rich man,

Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.

All day long I'd biddy biddy bum.

If I were a wealthy man.

I wouldn't have to work hard.

Ya ha deedle deedle, bubba bubba deedle deedle dum.

If I were a biddy biddy rich,

Yidle-diddle-didle-didle man.

"Guess what? Big news..."

Can I just say that I am not sure that I like the new Blogger/Google marriage! Its frustrating. I guess...I may not know how to use it right yet I guess...

Anyway, so speaking of marriage...it seems like everytime I get on facebook or check blog accounts everyone seems to have "BIG NEWS". Lately I don't even need to hear what "the big news" is in order to know "the big news". I am not against marriage in anyway. I want to get married. I just can't seem to understand where this epidemic of relationships came from. One minute everyone I know is single, and we are pineing for the day that we'd "have big news" or find "the one" and the next minute, they've all left me by myself with books that are supposed to help me be patient. "I Kissed Dating Good-Bye" "Lady in Waiting" "Finding the Love of Your Life" "Bondage of the Will" -- oh wait wrong catagory...the title fit...

I have a decision to make at this point. As I am choked on the dust of those who have left me behind I can choose to continue to be patient, or I can choose to wallow in the midst of jealousy, envy, self-pity, and all the other things that I and probably many others face while there friends go off and find prince Charming, or Princess whoever...I want to choose to be happy for the MANY friends who have gotton engaged in the past month, and I am, but I can't help but wonder if there is something wrong with me. Why I am always the girl that the guys ask advice from about another girl, but I am never the girl. (there's the self-pity...try again)

I am happy for all my friends, I am just scared that when my big news comes, if it ever will...there won't be anyone there to share it with. The number of close friends dwindles as they are one by one fading away into engagements, wedding plans, weddings, and for some, family. Babies, nursuries, toys, and pre-k occupies the time that was once spent going out to lunch or driving to DQ for ice cream. Life is passing me by. What do I do with it. I am called to a life of servanthood to Christ. I need to do my best to serve him because when it is all said and done HE IS ALL I NEED! I don't need all those other things, nice as they would be, I don't need them. I am to seek HIS KINGDOM AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS first, and all other things will be added to them. Use my time wisely, waiting each moment for the plan God has for me because HE knows what is best.